(he can't come on time, what, people are gonna think he's RELIABLE now? wait till an emergency--oh, right, that has happened. better to be reliable when shit's going down than to be reliable to be punctual. he comes and goes like he pleases. like an outdoor cat.
either way, he has a tequila in hands, a skip in his step, and he smiles as he plops down on the sand.)
[Does he complain about waiting for Dazai for like 10 minutes or whatever? Scott squints down at him as he sits on the ground, acting like he has no care in the world. ...Yeah, it probably isn't worth getting on his case and so the teen just goes with holding his hand out, as if expecting Dazai to give him the bottle of tequila.]
(instead of the bottle, he gets the hand, and well, that wonderful cool wash of emptiness that 'no longer human' brings. two gifts for the price of one?)
[He probably should've expected this in hindsight, but as Dazai's powers wash over him-- taking away his optic blasts, the pressure that always sort of exists in his head now, the teen gasps slightly in surprise. He doesn't pull away because he really doesn't want to, as even though he's slightly more accepting of his mutant abilities now, it's always nice to have this reprieve.]
W-warn a guy, next time.
[Scott lets out a breath, but the teen tightens his grip, almost afraid that Dazai will pull away. Once certain he's not going to do so, he plops himself down next to him.]
Does it still give you a little surprise? You'll get used to it, I promise. If I warn you, then I'm adding to your sense of security, and honestly, in this place, no one should have any! I'm looking out for you, and I do that in mysterious ways, the sooner you get used to it, the better!
(it means that if he needs to stop scott someday, like he had to stop several abilities last time, it's less of a shock, less of a surprise, quicker response to grounding. he's a dick, he knows that very much, but the way he deals with teenagers and mentees alike - they work, regrettable as his actions may be, for all involved including himself. he squeezes the hand, a reminder that all is fine, he won't let go, before dazai passes on the booze.)
You should know, though, I'm covered from head to toe. You can only get 'No Longer Human' from my hands, face, neck, and feet. Everything else is bandaged.
(important information if scott wants to grab dazai's wrist in the future.)
[What the hell is Dazai getting at?? With his free hand, Scott lifts his shades to perch them on the top of his head, just so that he can use the full force of his squint. He normally can't do this anymore, so might as well use what he has now!!]
That's a long way of saying that you're a complete dick.
[He definitely doesn't get what he may be hinting at, but despite his words, Scott doesn't let go of his hand, especially as he faces him. He mentioned that powers don't work at all around his person, but he'd rather be sure and that's by keeping contact. As much as he thinks Dazai is annoying, he'd be pretty devastated if he actually hurt him--]
Why are you bandaged like a half-assed mummy anyway? [He asks while taking the booze. Scott feels like he's going to need this and underage drinking is totally cool.]
Ah, you can keep them off, I'll keep holding you, so you can keep giving me that look! That's how I grow stronger!
(well, bullshit. much like everything he says.
'no longer human' is contact-based only, therefore, he has to keep the boy's hand on his. he'd love to say he isn't particularly into holding men's hands, but at this point, bullshit sounds just like that. no one buys it anymore!!!)
Maybe I'm blue from the neck down. Or maybe! It keeps my true powers from exploding!! Maybe I just attempted suicide many times, and the marks don't make me particularly happy. You get to pick, all real possibilities!
[He leaves his sunglasses on top of his head and maybe that's a con for him, because Scott's never been great at hiding his reactions to shit. Now he's even more of an open book as he stares at Dazai with a 'what the fuck' expression.
Like. Dude. The hell??
He doesn't know what to say to any of his 'suggestions,' so perhaps this is the best time to take a big swig out of the tequila and nearly gag as he feels the liquid burn down his throat. Okay, so maybe he should slow down. Scott coughs, but he doesn't let go of the bottle.]
Ah, but it is true, however. One of them, anyway! Not really a joke. I thought you knew that!
(that dazai often tries, or fantasises, or whines, about wanting to leave this existence, at least. he doesn't attempt to hide it, to lie about it, and he's cheerful in his lack of connection to breathing. either way, he watches the coughing, gently tapping the boy's back.)
[Scott frowns at him, swallowing past the burn in his throat to really look at Dazai. He has Doubts that he's fucking blue past his neck and maybe the exploding powers thing is real, but he did mention the whole dying bit to him before. He thought it was him being Really Annoying but now it's possibly more than that???
What does he even say to that??
The mutant cringes, feeling his mood drop, before taking another big drink from the bottle. He doesn't even feel the burn as badly this time, because his thoughts can't help but whirl about Dazai's maybe suicide attempts.]
That's really not funny. What the hell. [He says quietly.] Why.
(the point here is quite interesting. on one hand, it is sort of fun to poke around that teenage rebellion and attitude that scott has, but on the other one, perhaps it is time to drop a little the whole annoying act to be real with the kid a little bit.
it's strategy, after all, he has been like this since forever -- it's not like he won't learn about it one way or another. better keep it controlled than scaring scott in such futures.)
Ah, it might not be, but it is true after all. I've always been like this, so it's preferrable to keep it wrapped -- ah, literally!
[So. He's definitely tried before. Several times, at that.
If Dazai is joking with him, Scott's not only going to dunk this bottle on his head, but also blast his stupid face off. But for now, the teen remains rather morose, his head lowered slightly before he finally finds his voice to speak once more.]
Why? [He asks again, not quite realizing how blunt and maybe a little insensitive his question comes off.] You don't want to anymore, right?
Oh, much to the contrary, I'm always trying, but I just seem to be very bad at it if in over eight years I haven't managed.
(math.
honesty, honesty, honesty. he does not enjoy it, but it is rather real - not something he can keep aside when he is constantly talking and whining and trying. at home, usually, there are no questions, an acceptance that dazai simply is this way, only few people have inquired.
here, it surprises him how many people actually get this upset.)
[What does he even say? Actually, he doesn't even know how to feel-- angry?? Upset?? Some crushing hopelessness?? Deeply feeling one thing is enough, but multiple at once? Scott feels his teeth clench and as a Master of Emotions, he feels his cheeks heat up too and suddenly, he just wants to hit someone. Maybe Dazai. Actually, that sounds great.
He secures the alcohol between his legs, before using his free to swat Dazai in his face-- anywhere, really.]
(he saw it coming, at least, knowing the signs and always expecting someone to want to smack him. a dodge, easy, but he falls on his back theatrically to do so.
hand still in hand, though.)
Ah, don't yell at me, can't you just be normal and cheer for my dreams???
[Because they're stupid dreams and everything! Scott doesn't have the voice to say any of that, however, and continues to try and hit him with his hand. Maybe he'll even result in kicking too, because he's not above any of that. Of course, it's a bit of an awkward position, but he's sure going to try.]
[After one last swat, Scott eventually just sort of... slumps, tired from his sudden burst of violence and just dealing with all this. His eyes stay fixated on the bottle in between his legs, not wanting to look at him.]
Then, just stop.
[He mutters almost inaudibly, before flicking the shades that's been on his head to cover his eyes once more. Maybe then Dazai won't notice him sniffling because that's super embarrassing. It isn't just Dazai's fault that he's reacting this way, but also everything to do with the giant monster and Kotone and shit, but blaming the older man for all his overwhelming feelings sounds good right now.]
(oh, scott. dazai's not good at this. when he first became a mentor, it had been violence and abuse that colored all his guidance, to create a strong and ruthless survivor. with atsushi, that would never work - and this is when dazai's learning how to tend to softness, to understanding, rather than breaking something apart to put it back in the way dazai finds the best fit.
but he hears the sniffing. he squeezes the hand a little tighter before he reaches to remove the sunglasses, unspoken safety before he finally leaves his childish mask to the side.)
Those are your feelings, it's okay to make any expression you want out of them. One general thing is, however, if you keep these things to yourself, they're going to slowly eat away at you. You're still a teenager, you can learn to better deal with it easier - talk, or don't talk, I won't make you, but you don't have to go through these things alone or hide them away.
(because scott is young. he's just met dazai, it hardly matters if dazai were to kick it the next day. just exploring his powers for the first time, finding hope, and then whatever it is that he went through when the monster took over - must be a lot.)
[He's not crying what are you talking about-- okay, he is. Scott doesn't bother to fight Dazai as he pulls his sunglasses away, revealing tightly clenched eyes and tear tracks, which are hastily wiped away even as he starts crying. This may go down later as one of his most embarrassing days in his life, but Scott's going to tell that side of him to shut up for now.]
Shut up. [Scott says without any bite whatsoever.] It's nothing-- I mean, I don't know.
[Puberty is hard enough without gaining mutant powers and being whisked to another world without anyone you know--]
(dazai knows that space and comfort will speak more than him asking, it starts the path in case that scott decides to trust him to hear it. he won't say a thing, instead just tap his shoulders as a place for scott to hide if he so wishes.
[With that simple silent offer, he turns slightly and buries his face against Dazai's shoulder. Hopefully the mafioso doesn't mind his shoulder getting partially soaked as Scott freely lets himself cry against him, letting his pent up feelings that have been growing the past couple of months finally out. He stops himself from sobbing loudly at least, just letting out small choked off noises, because he can't fully stop himself.
He doesn't say anything yet, mostly because he doesn't know where to begin or how much he actually wants to talk about still, but he's glad to have this much.]
(no words fall from his lips. instead, all he can do is hold the boy against him as comfortably as he can, although his hand taps perhaps a little awkwardly against his back. it's not often this happens, so all he can do is his best to make it as open as possible.
scott can sob if he wants. all dazai will do is hold him in the embrace of 'no longer human'. perhaps that will simply create someone else who feels that dazai's touch equals protection.)
[His shoulders stop shaking as his crying quiets, but he still hasn't pulled away, mostly because he's finding comfort in his arms.
...
He wonders if Dazai is going to be mad at him with what he's about to say, but Scott doesn't want to keep quiet about it any longer. His fingers bury deeper against the older man, however, like he's half afraid that he'll push him away or suddenly reject him even if he has all rights to.]
...Kotone and I fought-- I think I might've hurt her. [And she probably thinks she hurt him, with the whole Thanatos tossing him aside. They haven't talked since that whole incident and Scott knows that they should, but talking is also Hard man. At least Dazai mentioned that she's not hurt now, but he still thinks about it a lot.]
(his hand doesn't leave. he knows how calming it can be, to have numbness quiet a storm when his touch is involved. the awkward patting evolves into a similarly awkward caress of his palm making circling motions against scott's back, his chin tucking on the top of the boy's head.
this most likely is regarding the mind-controlling case, not a fight any of them had any control or will over. a moment that he thinks, because, he too has hurt kotone.)
Koto-chan is much stronger than she looks, you know. I've hurt her before, unfortunately. I will say, nothing will be solved if you avoid her. If you reach and she pulls away, give her time. It's all she ever needs.
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either way, he has a tequila in hands, a skip in his step, and he smiles as he plops down on the sand.)
Hey, here it is!
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Great, you're here. Hand it over.
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(instead of the bottle, he gets the hand, and well, that wonderful cool wash of emptiness that 'no longer human' brings. two gifts for the price of one?)
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W-warn a guy, next time.
[Scott lets out a breath, but the teen tightens his grip, almost afraid that Dazai will pull away. Once certain he's not going to do so, he plops himself down next to him.]
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(it means that if he needs to stop scott someday, like he had to stop several abilities last time, it's less of a shock, less of a surprise, quicker response to grounding. he's a dick, he knows that very much, but the way he deals with teenagers and mentees alike - they work, regrettable as his actions may be, for all involved including himself. he squeezes the hand, a reminder that all is fine, he won't let go, before dazai passes on the booze.)
You should know, though, I'm covered from head to toe. You can only get 'No Longer Human' from my hands, face, neck, and feet. Everything else is bandaged.
(important information if scott wants to grab dazai's wrist in the future.)
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That's a long way of saying that you're a complete dick.
[He definitely doesn't get what he may be hinting at, but despite his words, Scott doesn't let go of his hand, especially as he faces him. He mentioned that powers don't work at all around his person, but he'd rather be sure and that's by keeping contact. As much as he thinks Dazai is annoying, he'd be pretty devastated if he actually hurt him--]
Why are you bandaged like a half-assed mummy anyway? [He asks while taking the booze. Scott feels like he's going to need this and underage drinking is totally cool.]
cw suicide mention
(well, bullshit. much like everything he says.
'no longer human' is contact-based only, therefore, he has to keep the boy's hand on his. he'd love to say he isn't particularly into holding men's hands, but at this point, bullshit sounds just like that. no one buys it anymore!!!)
Maybe I'm blue from the neck down. Or maybe! It keeps my true powers from exploding!! Maybe I just attempted suicide many times, and the marks don't make me particularly happy. You get to pick, all real possibilities!
cw underage drinking
[He leaves his sunglasses on top of his head and maybe that's a con for him, because Scott's never been great at hiding his reactions to shit. Now he's even more of an open book as he stares at Dazai with a 'what the fuck' expression.
Like. Dude. The hell??
He doesn't know what to say to any of his 'suggestions,' so perhaps this is the best time to take a big swig out of the tequila and nearly gag as he feels the liquid burn down his throat. Okay, so maybe he should slow down. Scott coughs, but he doesn't let go of the bottle.]
Your sense of humor sucks.
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(that dazai often tries, or fantasises, or whines, about wanting to leave this existence, at least. he doesn't attempt to hide it, to lie about it, and he's cheerful in his lack of connection to breathing. either way, he watches the coughing, gently tapping the boy's back.)
Tequila's strong, so, don't gulp!
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[Scott frowns at him, swallowing past the burn in his throat to really look at Dazai. He has Doubts that he's fucking blue past his neck and maybe the exploding powers thing is real, but he did mention the whole dying bit to him before. He thought it was him being Really Annoying but now it's possibly more than that???
What does he even say to that??
The mutant cringes, feeling his mood drop, before taking another big drink from the bottle. He doesn't even feel the burn as badly this time, because his thoughts can't help but whirl about Dazai's maybe suicide attempts.]
That's really not funny. What the hell. [He says quietly.] Why.
cw suicide talk
it's strategy, after all, he has been like this since forever -- it's not like he won't learn about it one way or another. better keep it controlled than scaring scott in such futures.)
Ah, it might not be, but it is true after all. I've always been like this, so it's preferrable to keep it wrapped -- ah, literally!
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If Dazai is joking with him, Scott's not only going to dunk this bottle on his head, but also blast his stupid face off. But for now, the teen remains rather morose, his head lowered slightly before he finally finds his voice to speak once more.]
Why? [He asks again, not quite realizing how blunt and maybe a little insensitive his question comes off.] You don't want to anymore, right?
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(math.
honesty, honesty, honesty. he does not enjoy it, but it is rather real - not something he can keep aside when he is constantly talking and whining and trying. at home, usually, there are no questions, an acceptance that dazai simply is this way, only few people have inquired.
here, it surprises him how many people actually get this upset.)
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He secures the alcohol between his legs, before using his free to swat Dazai in his face-- anywhere, really.]
Don't try anymore you stupid idiot!!
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hand still in hand, though.)
Ah, don't yell at me, can't you just be normal and cheer for my dreams???
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[Because they're stupid dreams and everything! Scott doesn't have the voice to say any of that, however, and continues to try and hit him with his hand. Maybe he'll even result in kicking too, because he's not above any of that. Of course, it's a bit of an awkward position, but he's sure going to try.]
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(child, PLEASE, be normal!!)
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Then, just stop.
[He mutters almost inaudibly, before flicking the shades that's been on his head to cover his eyes once more. Maybe then Dazai won't notice him sniffling because that's super embarrassing. It isn't just Dazai's fault that he's reacting this way, but also everything to do with the giant monster and Kotone and shit, but blaming the older man for all his overwhelming feelings sounds good right now.]
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but he hears the sniffing. he squeezes the hand a little tighter before he reaches to remove the sunglasses, unspoken safety before he finally leaves his childish mask to the side.)
Those are your feelings, it's okay to make any expression you want out of them. One general thing is, however, if you keep these things to yourself, they're going to slowly eat away at you. You're still a teenager, you can learn to better deal with it easier - talk, or don't talk, I won't make you, but you don't have to go through these things alone or hide them away.
(because scott is young. he's just met dazai, it hardly matters if dazai were to kick it the next day. just exploring his powers for the first time, finding hope, and then whatever it is that he went through when the monster took over - must be a lot.)
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Shut up. [Scott says without any bite whatsoever.] It's nothing-- I mean, I don't know.
[Puberty is hard enough without gaining mutant powers and being whisked to another world without anyone you know--]
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these children are gonna be the death of him...)
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He doesn't say anything yet, mostly because he doesn't know where to begin or how much he actually wants to talk about still, but he's glad to have this much.]
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scott can sob if he wants. all dazai will do is hold him in the embrace of 'no longer human'. perhaps that will simply create someone else who feels that dazai's touch equals protection.)
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...
He wonders if Dazai is going to be mad at him with what he's about to say, but Scott doesn't want to keep quiet about it any longer. His fingers bury deeper against the older man, however, like he's half afraid that he'll push him away or suddenly reject him even if he has all rights to.]
...Kotone and I fought-- I think I might've hurt her. [And she probably thinks she hurt him, with the whole Thanatos tossing him aside. They haven't talked since that whole incident and Scott knows that they should, but talking is also Hard man. At least Dazai mentioned that she's not hurt now, but he still thinks about it a lot.]
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this most likely is regarding the mind-controlling case, not a fight any of them had any control or will over. a moment that he thinks, because, he too has hurt kotone.)
Koto-chan is much stronger than she looks, you know. I've hurt her before, unfortunately. I will say, nothing will be solved if you avoid her. If you reach and she pulls away, give her time. It's all she ever needs.
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