[He's sure that Kotone would appreciate it anyway.]
I plan on making her happy. She definitely deserves it after everything.
[He wants to make her happy for as long as he can. Something aches in his chest thinking about it, unable to really stop his thoughts from turning just a little south. He's been trying not to dwell on how temporary everything is here, but sometimes it's hard. But no matter how hard it is sometimes, he doesn't want to just give up. He loves being with her.]
...How much as she told you? Especially with what happened back home?
[Not that he wants to dampen the mood but Scott just had to know that everything here was always fleeting. Especially given how Kotone was supposed to be dead back home.]
[Kotone's fate back home was not on the list of things he wanted to talk about today, or any day, if he's fully honest with himself. A shuddering breath leaves him as he rereads Ken's message, somewhat glad that everything is text so that the younger boy doesn't have to see his pained expression.
But guess if anyone would really understand and feel the hurt of her death, it's Ken. It doesn't make it too much easier, and a part of him doesn't want to talk about it all or change topics, because she's here and alive with them now, but this is probably important to the younger boy.
His hand shakes a little typing back, and so it takes Scott a moment to respond.]
That you guys stopped Nyx from ending the world or something. ...Kotone told me that she died stopping Nyx.
[Was it something that he wanted to bring up? No but he also wanted to be sure of Scott was ready. He didn't want to know that she was dead back up after he got together with her and that he had to be ready should they go back home. It was a good thing at Scott couldn't see Ken's expression for he too was a little worried about all of this.]
...Would this be where the right thing to say is that I leave her in your hands?
[And was so upset by it, raising his own voice at her and asking why she's so calm about it. It definitely wasn't his finest moment, because he felt like he upset her, but his emotions haven't changed all that much since that conversation on the rooftop months ago. He's still upset, but... what can he do about it besides spend each day with her to the fullest? Making her happy?
He just hopes that she doesn't disappear one afternoon without warning, like so many others.]
Is... is there really no way to save her, Ken? [He asks, not quite answering his own question yet.]
I don't really know. I just know that Nyx wants to help humanity by bringing death.
[Because in the deepest parts of humanity, they all wish for death. With all of their struggles and hardship, their deepest desire was what screamed out to Nyx.]
However, my teammates and I are trying to help one person at a time. If they stopped wishing for death, then maybe we can save her.
['Help humanity by bringing death?' Sounds like a bunch of crap. He hates Nyx for a multitude of reasons, but it looks like that hating them is something everyone sort of feels.]
Wait, I don't quite understand Ken, is Kotone not... fully dead then? Like she didn't die in battle?
[Maybe he's just being desperate, clinging to any sort of hope that Kotone can be helped in some way. Of course, he's not from their world so it's up in the air what he can really do, but Scott still wants to know. He wants her to live so badly... because she deserves it. Because he loves her.]
[Almost immediately, he feels his heart leap directly into his throat, not being able to read past 'no, not really' for a solid few seconds. Is she really not gone? Can she have a life?? His hands shake once more, but the motion isn't something he really notices, because his mind only centers on the fact that Kotone may actually have a chance. He's not sure if he's even breathing right now, suddenly overrun by a variety of feelings, the most being hope.
...Okay, hearing that her body is gone and her soul is acting like a gate isn't great but, he finds himself immediately typing in response.]
What happened to her body? But okay, if her soul is pulled from that gate and Nyx is still stopped, she'll... be alive again?
I like to think so. While she might not have a mortal body to go to, it doesn't mean that she can't be revived again.
[Which was a hopeful thought. However, he never really thought too much about it given that it seemed rather impossible to go and save his leader. And yet, now that he did...?]
However, I never thought that I would see her again.
You guys summon Personas by shooting special guns to your head, defeat Shadows, and went through something known as the Dark Hour. Pretty sure that Kotone regaining her body if her soul's released wouldn't be too out there.
[Again, it might be that desperation talking, clinging to some miraculous hope because it feels good. It's nice to be able to hope for Kotone instead of just knowing that she's simply gone forever back home. Fuck. It's the best thing he's heard in months and Scott feels his eyes prick, but for once, it's out of sheer relief.]
You're right, nothing is impossible and especially when we have gone through a lot.
[Funny that. After fighting against death and knowing that there was a chance that they could defeat it, they still managed to do the impossible. If they could do that, why couldn't they do it the same with Kotone?]
[He's glad to see Ken agreeing with him, because he definitely has more insight on what's possible or not, being that he's actually from her world and been through all kinds of things with her. Seeing that he's unwilling to just give up truly helps, like this isn't a long shot or just dreams of a boy that wants a life for his girlfriend. Of course, it's a little upsetting that he can't really do anything, unless he's able to go back to her world.
Which, haha. Is that even possible? Well, maybe--]
I promise to never give up on her.
The other members of SEES, have they thought about this at all?
[He's mostly referring to the ones back home, because in this place, uhh Ryoji is Ryoji, and Shinji is in a coma actually dead but. So, hard to really talk to them about this, and he doesn't know too much about Mitsuru yet.]
[Because you know. With Shinjiro being in a coma and totally not being there with everything that happened? He probably didn't have much time to think about it.]
Almost all of us fought Nyx and uh...another God so we all had the same thought when we realize we could help Kotone-san out.
[It's nice to know that her friends haven't forgotten about her. Wasn't Kotone worried about that? Ken's proof that he still remembers everything they've been through, so it's reasonable to think that the other... surviving members are in the same boat.
And they'd want to help her, right? Save her in some way. That's what friends do. He feels like that small hope from earlier is growing, but even if it was just a miniscule amount, he would've still clung to it.]
Geez, there was another threat after Nyx? So, you guys are already thinking about saving her back home?
We didn't think about saving her until we realized that she was acting as a barrier between us and Erebus. But now that we knew, it was then that we thought about saving her.
[Because before then, they just assumed she died with no real closure or what was the motive of how she died.]
[Not too much, but also, it's not something he's really gone out of his way asking her about. Kind of a touchy subject. Like, why bring up the circumstances of her death when he could just continue teasing her and having fun? He's sure that she doesn't want to talk about it either...]
Mostly that Nyx was going to destroy the world and she had to stop it.
[By sacrificing herself, but he figures that he doesn't need to say that.]
Because Erebus is the God of Death and Nyx was simply a messenger to deliver what humanity wanted. Nyx herself isn't dangerous since she's acting on what people wish for.
By her acting as a gate, she was trying to stop the both of them.
[There was the issue with Ryoji and then there was the whole God where he just wanted nothing but chaos for humanity. However, he'll keep that to himself. He didn't want to break Scott's mind anymore than he is doing right now.]
[Ryoji is part of Nyx or something like that, right? And now Nyx and Erebus are also connected and really, it's a lot just hearing about this. He can't imagine what it was like actually fighting all this. No wonder everyone from that world is tired or riddled with shit and everything.
Kotone is definitely no exception either. Still, Scott presses on, because this is important.]
So we either people need to stop fucking wishing for death or defeat Erebus himself?
[So the options to save Kotone are... changing people's views so that they no longer want death or defeating the God of Death itself, except that he comes back anyway. It feels like a fucking mountain to climb and he's at the base of it, not even knowing how to get past the first step.
But he's not going to give up, even though he's honestly a little clueless on where to even start.]
I mean, if you defeated Erebus before and have the means to do it again, doesn't that mean Kotone can just be freed?
Just enough where it'll lessen the burden on her but not enough to set her free.
[Which was an impossible task. He really didn't want to bring Scott's optimism down and he also didn't want to give up saving his leader. But with the resources they had back home? It seemed rather difficult at the moment.]
I'm not giving up if that's what you're wondering. With what we have right now, it's a rather impossible task. Not only that, I'm also not even sure if we can go back to where we fought Erebus.
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However, all I ask is that you make her happy. I think she deserves it.
[Especially considering what happened to her in the end.]
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I plan on making her happy. She definitely deserves it after everything.
[He wants to make her happy for as long as he can. Something aches in his chest thinking about it, unable to really stop his thoughts from turning just a little south. He's been trying not to dwell on how temporary everything is here, but sometimes it's hard. But no matter how hard it is sometimes, he doesn't want to just give up. He loves being with her.]
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[Not that he wants to dampen the mood but Scott just had to know that everything here was always fleeting. Especially given how Kotone was supposed to be dead back home.]
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But guess if anyone would really understand and feel the hurt of her death, it's Ken. It doesn't make it too much easier, and a part of him doesn't want to talk about it all or change topics, because she's here and alive with them now, but this is probably important to the younger boy.
His hand shakes a little typing back, and so it takes Scott a moment to respond.]
That you guys stopped Nyx from ending the world or something. ...Kotone told me that she died stopping Nyx.
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[Was it something that he wanted to bring up? No but he also wanted to be sure of Scott was ready. He didn't want to know that she was dead back up after he got together with her and that he had to be ready should they go back home. It was a good thing at Scott couldn't see Ken's expression for he too was a little worried about all of this.]
...Would this be where the right thing to say is that I leave her in your hands?
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[And was so upset by it, raising his own voice at her and asking why she's so calm about it. It definitely wasn't his finest moment, because he felt like he upset her, but his emotions haven't changed all that much since that conversation on the rooftop months ago. He's still upset, but... what can he do about it besides spend each day with her to the fullest? Making her happy?
He just hopes that she doesn't disappear one afternoon without warning, like so many others.]
Is... is there really no way to save her, Ken? [He asks, not quite answering his own question yet.]
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[Because in the deepest parts of humanity, they all wish for death. With all of their struggles and hardship, their deepest desire was what screamed out to Nyx.]
However, my teammates and I are trying to help one person at a time. If they stopped wishing for death, then maybe we can save her.
[Or at least, that's what they wish for.]
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Wait, I don't quite understand Ken, is Kotone not... fully dead then? Like she didn't die in battle?
[Maybe he's just being desperate, clinging to any sort of hope that Kotone can be helped in some way. Of course, he's not from their world so it's up in the air what he can really do, but Scott still wants to know. He wants her to live so badly... because she deserves it. Because he loves her.]
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[Oh man, how does he explain everything that had happened to the both of them??]
More like her mortal body is gone but her soul isn't. Her soul acts like a gate between Nyx and our world to prevent Nyx from coming.
[...But the more he thought about it, the more he wondered if he should be explaining it when Kotone should probably be the one to tell him.]
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...Okay, hearing that her body is gone and her soul is acting like a gate isn't great but, he finds himself immediately typing in response.]
What happened to her body? But okay, if her soul is pulled from that gate and Nyx is still stopped, she'll... be alive again?
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[Which was a hopeful thought. However, he never really thought too much about it given that it seemed rather impossible to go and save his leader. And yet, now that he did...?]
However, I never thought that I would see her again.
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[Again, it might be that desperation talking, clinging to some miraculous hope because it feels good. It's nice to be able to hope for Kotone instead of just knowing that she's simply gone forever back home. Fuck. It's the best thing he's heard in months and Scott feels his eyes prick, but for once, it's out of sheer relief.]
Nothing's impossible, right?
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[Funny that. After fighting against death and knowing that there was a chance that they could defeat it, they still managed to do the impossible. If they could do that, why couldn't they do it the same with Kotone?]
...Perhaps I just needed that reminder.
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Which, haha. Is that even possible? Well, maybe--]
I promise to never give up on her.
The other members of SEES, have they thought about this at all?
[He's mostly referring to the ones back home, because in this place, uhh Ryoji is Ryoji, and Shinji is in a coma
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[Because you know. With Shinjiro being in a coma and totally not being there with everything that happened? He probably didn't have much time to think about it.]
Almost all of us fought Nyx and uh...another God so we all had the same thought when we realize we could help Kotone-san out.
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And they'd want to help her, right? Save her in some way. That's what friends do. He feels like that small hope from earlier is growing, but even if it was just a miniscule amount, he would've still clung to it.]
Geez, there was another threat after Nyx? So, you guys are already thinking about saving her back home?
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[Because before then, they just assumed she died with no real closure or what was the motive of how she died.]
Because we didn't know what happened.
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I thought she was a barrier between Nyx and the world. Who is Erebus?
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[Well, that just made things a little more tricky.]
....Just how much did she tell you?
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Mostly that Nyx was going to destroy the world and she had to stop it.
[By sacrificing herself, but he figures that he doesn't need to say that.]
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By her acting as a gate, she was trying to stop the both of them.
[There was the issue with Ryoji and then there was the whole God where he just wanted nothing but chaos for humanity. However, he'll keep that to himself. He didn't want to break Scott's mind anymore than he is doing right now.]
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Kotone is definitely no exception either. Still, Scott presses on, because this is important.]
So we either people need to stop fucking wishing for death or defeat Erebus himself?
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…That and we tried. We did defeat him but he’ll always come back. We can’t really kill a God, can we?
[But even then, Ken plans to fight until he can’t anymore should it happen.]
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But he's not going to give up, even though he's honestly a little clueless on where to even start.]
I mean, if you defeated Erebus before and have the means to do it again, doesn't that mean Kotone can just be freed?
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[Which was an impossible task. He really didn't want to bring Scott's optimism down and he also didn't want to give up saving his leader. But with the resources they had back home? It seemed rather difficult at the moment.]
I'm not giving up if that's what you're wondering. With what we have right now, it's a rather impossible task. Not only that, I'm also not even sure if we can go back to where we fought Erebus.
[Well, there was Elizabeth but..................]
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