[Not too much, but also, it's not something he's really gone out of his way asking her about. Kind of a touchy subject. Like, why bring up the circumstances of her death when he could just continue teasing her and having fun? He's sure that she doesn't want to talk about it either...]
Mostly that Nyx was going to destroy the world and she had to stop it.
[By sacrificing herself, but he figures that he doesn't need to say that.]
Because Erebus is the God of Death and Nyx was simply a messenger to deliver what humanity wanted. Nyx herself isn't dangerous since she's acting on what people wish for.
By her acting as a gate, she was trying to stop the both of them.
[There was the issue with Ryoji and then there was the whole God where he just wanted nothing but chaos for humanity. However, he'll keep that to himself. He didn't want to break Scott's mind anymore than he is doing right now.]
[Ryoji is part of Nyx or something like that, right? And now Nyx and Erebus are also connected and really, it's a lot just hearing about this. He can't imagine what it was like actually fighting all this. No wonder everyone from that world is tired or riddled with shit and everything.
Kotone is definitely no exception either. Still, Scott presses on, because this is important.]
So we either people need to stop fucking wishing for death or defeat Erebus himself?
[So the options to save Kotone are... changing people's views so that they no longer want death or defeating the God of Death itself, except that he comes back anyway. It feels like a fucking mountain to climb and he's at the base of it, not even knowing how to get past the first step.
But he's not going to give up, even though he's honestly a little clueless on where to even start.]
I mean, if you defeated Erebus before and have the means to do it again, doesn't that mean Kotone can just be freed?
Just enough where it'll lessen the burden on her but not enough to set her free.
[Which was an impossible task. He really didn't want to bring Scott's optimism down and he also didn't want to give up saving his leader. But with the resources they had back home? It seemed rather difficult at the moment.]
I'm not giving up if that's what you're wondering. With what we have right now, it's a rather impossible task. Not only that, I'm also not even sure if we can go back to where we fought Erebus.
The Abyss of Time, where time doesn’t move forward or go back. We only managed to find out by fighting one another as we were debating on what to do. We didn’t know should we go back to find a way to save Kotone-san and fight Nyx? Or should we just let things as it be?
It was rather…difficult.
[And why Ken hasn’t told her anything yet. If she knew, he didn’t know how she would react.]
[And then there was a long silence. As he wondered what Scott might say to Kotone once word gets out, he feared what his leader would think of the aftermath of her death. At the same time, he couldn't get out of this. Not when Scott deserved to know too.]
...We all wanted to see Kotone-san again. Because of our grief, the Abyss of Time was made. All of us didn't want to move forward and continue without her.
[A place being created because of their grief. It's weird to think about, but also, Scott can fully understand that feeling, of at least wanting to see her again. He hasn't lost Kotone yet, but just the thought of it pulls at his heart. Scott's honestly not sure what he'd do if she disappeared, even though he knows that it'll happen at some point. He just doesn't want to think about it.]
I know that I've only known Kotone for 8 months or so, but I'd feel the same way. I'd want to see her again, no matter what.
Then until we find a way to help her, all we can do is to treasure whatever time we have. I know I worry the day she might leave this place and I won't see her again.
I think she feels the same way.
[Because at the end of the day, Ken was powerless to do anything. He didn't know what these people wanted, he didn't know how to fight against Erebus or Nyx. He didn't even know if people stopping people to wish for death would do much of anything.
[So, it's back to square one? Just cherishing every moment that he has with her? Scott can feel some of his hope breaking apart reading Ken's message, but some extremely stubborn part of him refuses to give up. Even if it will take years, even if they're from different realities, he still wants to do something.]
She does, she wants to live each day to the fullest. And I want to spend what time we have with her too.
Then hopefully when we can get out of this place, we can find a way for her to be alive. If she is able to be here, who is to say that she can't somehow?
[But again, this was him being optimistic. He really didn't know what this world wanted from her or anyone really. But if they managed to find a way to bring her back, then it must mean something right?]
I didn't think about it before... but maybe Jerry and the Council would know something that could help her. If they managed to bring her here and everything.
Then all the more reason why we need to talk to them and see what will happen.
Of course, they won't be honest but...
At least it's something. [And yet, he really really wanted to be hopeful but he's also prepared for the worst case scenario. However, he won't say that. Not to Scott anyway]
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I thought she was a barrier between Nyx and the world. Who is Erebus?
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[Well, that just made things a little more tricky.]
....Just how much did she tell you?
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Mostly that Nyx was going to destroy the world and she had to stop it.
[By sacrificing herself, but he figures that he doesn't need to say that.]
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By her acting as a gate, she was trying to stop the both of them.
[There was the issue with Ryoji and then there was the whole God where he just wanted nothing but chaos for humanity. However, he'll keep that to himself. He didn't want to break Scott's mind anymore than he is doing right now.]
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Kotone is definitely no exception either. Still, Scott presses on, because this is important.]
So we either people need to stop fucking wishing for death or defeat Erebus himself?
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…That and we tried. We did defeat him but he’ll always come back. We can’t really kill a God, can we?
[But even then, Ken plans to fight until he can’t anymore should it happen.]
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But he's not going to give up, even though he's honestly a little clueless on where to even start.]
I mean, if you defeated Erebus before and have the means to do it again, doesn't that mean Kotone can just be freed?
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[Which was an impossible task. He really didn't want to bring Scott's optimism down and he also didn't want to give up saving his leader. But with the resources they had back home? It seemed rather difficult at the moment.]
I'm not giving up if that's what you're wondering. With what we have right now, it's a rather impossible task. Not only that, I'm also not even sure if we can go back to where we fought Erebus.
[Well, there was Elizabeth but..................]
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Maybe it take a couple more years, but we just have to keep fighting for her.
Of course, I'm saying this as if I'm part of your world, but... I want to hope with you, Ken. You won't ever be alone with this.
Where did you fight him anyway?
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It was rather…difficult.
[And why Ken hasn’t told her anything yet. If she knew, he didn’t know how she would react.]
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Why would some of you would even question that. Shouldn't the obvious choice be to fight Nyx?
[He's a little angry, but luckily, they are only communicating through text, so Ken doesn't have to see him like this.]
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[And this is where he wished Metis would be the one to explain all of this!]
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And you fight Erebus in the Abyss of Time. How did you get there in the first place?
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...We all wanted to see Kotone-san again. Because of our grief, the Abyss of Time was made. All of us didn't want to move forward and continue without her.
...Even when we know we had to.
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I know that I've only known Kotone for 8 months or so, but I'd feel the same way. I'd want to see her again, no matter what.
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I think she feels the same way.
[Because at the end of the day, Ken was powerless to do anything. He didn't know what these people wanted, he didn't know how to fight against Erebus or Nyx. He didn't even know if people stopping people to wish for death would do much of anything.
All he could do was just try his best and hope.]
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She does, she wants to live each day to the fullest. And I want to spend what time we have with her too.
But I still want to hope for more.
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[But again, this was him being optimistic. He really didn't know what this world wanted from her or anyone really. But if they managed to find a way to bring her back, then it must mean something right?]
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I didn't think about it before... but maybe Jerry and the Council would know something that could help her. If they managed to bring her here and everything.
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Of course, they won't be honest but...
At least it's something. [And yet, he really really wanted to be hopeful but he's also prepared for the worst case scenario. However, he won't say that. Not to Scott anyway]
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It's a place to start, at least here.
[Since there's not much he can do in her world right now, they'll just have to work with what they have.]
But thank you, Ken, for telling me all this.