(oh my god, are you seriously!!! school is important!!! the things he could accomplish if he knew physics, has he considered??? but he understands that it's not for everyone. he's thinking of MIT, so maybe he should do the school thing, except...)
I mean, I can't completely control everything, if I'm super honest.
[Sometimes he forgets that he hangs out with someone that runs a literal STEM club here.
But that admittance draws Scott's curiosity, his mouth parting slightly as he looks at his friend. When he said that only a couple of people can't control their powers, he literally meant that. Only him and Shinjiro have problems from what he knows.]
Really? It really feels like you have control over your powers man. Like your strength and the fact you can zip around the city with your webs.
[Which. Still is really cool and everything. He's a big fan.]
I mean, for the most part. We... Gwen and I, I mean. Spider-people. We have this, like, sixth sense type of thing going on. We can sense danger before it approaches, it's like a tingling sensation we get that tells us that something is not right and stuff. We can react to the thing even before we process it, but I can't always do that. Gotta concentrate real hard sometimes - and I can't always coordinate the sense with the reflexes, it's a whole thing, also the sensory stimulus sometimes can drive me crazy, but it really doesn't help that it feels like it's working overtime here, that sixth sense thing. We always feel like there's something off, and we can't pinpoint it.
[Seriously? Peter and Gwen has a power like that?? Something that informs them of danger before it happens? They really got a full packaged deal when bitten by that radioactive spider. He almost wants to say that this doesn't feel like a lack of control, maybe just inexperience or intuition, but he can tell that Peter is pretty bothered by this.
And so, he gets it.
Also, having that tingling feeling always going off in this place can't be fun. He understands that to some extent or just in a different way (not like his powers ever stop). Guess it also confirms that Aldrip is really fucked up, but he's always known that.]
...You can't just simply turn it off, right? It's a constant presence and so you can't fully relax.
Nope, it's like... When your phone is flashing the notification light but when you look at it, there's no notification, you know what I mean, right?-- wait, no, you don't. Think, uh, microwave, same idea, concept and all, it's beeping, but there's nothing in there for you to take out.
(sorry, he forgets the year difference, even with the tablets being a thing.
that said, scott hits it exactly on how he feels in aldrip. it's a perfect description of anxiety and an underlying concern that he can't do anything about.)
[Luckily, Scott catches on rather quickly with what Peter is trying to say. Guess he can thank the fact that he's been around pretty advanced tech now. Well, mostly the tablets.]
But seriously man, I get it. [Maybe not the anxiety part, but.] You know that my powers never turn off either, right? Like right now, they're hitting my glasses.
Not really headaches, but... there's like this constant presence in my head?
[It's not super uncomfortable or anything. Maybe he's just used to it though? At least it's not like the time when his optic blasts started developing, where his eyes were stinging and he had a full on headache.]
Like it's trying to remind me that my powers are always there. [To be careful. That he's not fully normal anymore. One slip up and he can seriously injure or kill others.]
(because he would easily say it could. imagine if your eyes threw lasers just for being open! does he see well? many things he wants to ask for science, but he will refrain for the time being.)
Sometimes? I mean, I'm kind of used to it by now. I had to adjust.
[He leans back on his hands, staring up at the sky with that forever red tint. Yeah, just something he's gotten used to. Sometimes it really bothers him, but those days are becoming more infrequent. They still happen, but usually he tries to remember some of the positives. Like being able to fight and protect his friends.] I don't want them to go away, despite the cons.
That's gotta be the spirit, man. What are we even going to do, right, vacuum clean our cells or something? Can't do, right? When you can do things we do, well, we can't just sit back. That's what I think, at least.
(but he understands the desire to not have to deal with it at all. not so much as it is, because the fact that he is who he is still awes him, inspires and makes him want to keep going, be better -- but he already knows how hard it is to have to leave so much behind to achieve that.)
[Scott snorts when Peter mentions vacuum cleaning their cells. He's sure that there's some group of humans back home that want to do something like that. Honestly knowing that, he wants to keep his mutation even more.]
...Yeah. [Do they have these powers for a reason? Maybe, maybe not, but.] We can do things others can't. Might as well use them for good.
[At least try to. His powers are mostly destructive and uncontrollable, but he can still do something with them. He's apparently going to be a X-Man in the future, so guess he figures something out. At least, other versions of him have.
But Scott tilts his head over at Peter.] Hey, thanks for this.
Yep. Exactly. Even if it's something small like getting a cat out of a tree, dude. Gotta help.
(he's gotten his fair share of cats out of tall trees, but see, to him it's easy to just stick to the truck and climb up, much easier than to just call the fire department for it.)
Hey, don't mention it, dude. I'm glad for it.
... And I should get going, STEM isn't gonna STEM by itself, right?
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I mean, I can't completely control everything, if I'm super honest.
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But that admittance draws Scott's curiosity, his mouth parting slightly as he looks at his friend. When he said that only a couple of people can't control their powers, he literally meant that. Only him and Shinjiro have problems from what he knows.]
Really? It really feels like you have control over your powers man. Like your strength and the fact you can zip around the city with your webs.
[Which. Still is really cool and everything. He's a big fan.]
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(oh, he started, and he kept going.)
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And so, he gets it.
Also, having that tingling feeling always going off in this place can't be fun. He understands that to some extent or just in a different way (not like his powers ever stop). Guess it also confirms that Aldrip is really fucked up, but he's always known that.]
...You can't just simply turn it off, right? It's a constant presence and so you can't fully relax.
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(sorry, he forgets the year difference, even with the tablets being a thing.
that said, scott hits it exactly on how he feels in aldrip. it's a perfect description of anxiety and an underlying concern that he can't do anything about.)
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But seriously man, I get it. [Maybe not the anxiety part, but.] You know that my powers never turn off either, right? Like right now, they're hitting my glasses.
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(he just has to ask. sometimes, power does not equate the physical capabilities to handle it, right? he just has to wonder.)
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[It's not super uncomfortable or anything. Maybe he's just used to it though? At least it's not like the time when his optic blasts started developing, where his eyes were stinging and he had a full on headache.]
Like it's trying to remind me that my powers are always there. [To be careful. That he's not fully normal anymore. One slip up and he can seriously injure or kill others.]
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(because he would easily say it could. imagine if your eyes threw lasers just for being open! does he see well? many things he wants to ask for science, but he will refrain for the time being.)
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[He leans back on his hands, staring up at the sky with that forever red tint. Yeah, just something he's gotten used to. Sometimes it really bothers him, but those days are becoming more infrequent. They still happen, but usually he tries to remember some of the positives. Like being able to fight and protect his friends.] I don't want them to go away, despite the cons.
[...] I'm a mutant.
[And he doesn't want to take that back.]
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(but he understands the desire to not have to deal with it at all. not so much as it is, because the fact that he is who he is still awes him, inspires and makes him want to keep going, be better -- but he already knows how hard it is to have to leave so much behind to achieve that.)
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...Yeah. [Do they have these powers for a reason? Maybe, maybe not, but.] We can do things others can't. Might as well use them for good.
[At least try to. His powers are mostly destructive and uncontrollable, but he can still do something with them. He's apparently going to be a X-Man in the future, so guess he figures something out. At least, other versions of him have.
But Scott tilts his head over at Peter.] Hey, thanks for this.
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(he's gotten his fair share of cats out of tall trees, but see, to him it's easy to just stick to the truck and climb up, much easier than to just call the fire department for it.)
Hey, don't mention it, dude. I'm glad for it.
... And I should get going, STEM isn't gonna STEM by itself, right?