[ ugh, having to open up really sucks sometimes. and if only she could be cruel enough to break her honesty code. ]
fine, ill admit it. but i wasnt jealous. i was angry, but not just at u and the princess.
i was angry at miss bazooka (dara by the way) and the shin-dude, i was mad at my sis and her dumb girlfriend. and... if there are more couples here that i dont know about, i would have been mad at them too.
i was mad because all of u are doing this dating shitck and getting along so well, and happy like some gross story book, while i went through a break up. sorta, i guess.
and i felt no one else really understood how i was feeling because u, kotone, or whoever have someone to love in that way. and the rest of us arent interested in that kind of lovey dovey crap in the first place.
so i felt alone, and i was trapped in this icky, weird limbo of hating qunetin's guts but missing him at the same time, and i didnt know what to do with myself. i felt i couldn't go to anyone because no one else was going through this or had some kind of experience about it. he was my first with everything, you know?
it all didnt seem fair. so. ive been angry about it.
but im not so much anymore. im still pretty.... confused with my feelings and what i want, but im just trying to not think about it and just have fun with this new guy.
even though he keeps buzzing in my ear about if we are something, and i keep changing the subject on him.
This is a lot of honesty and okay, Scott may take a little bit to respond, mostly because he's rereading some of the message. It's kind of surprising that she was angry at him-- at couples in general and that's definitely what this is. Jinx's upset that things didn't work out between her and Quentin while everyone is still together. Yeah, he could see how that would suck.
He tries to think of someone else that's in the same shoes as her, but honestly, Scott can't really picture anyone. Maybe Minato?? Since Aigis is gone, but it probably isn't the same thing still.]
it sucks that it didn't work out, jinx. i'm sorry that you felt alone and shit during all that. um, i don't really have any real advice-- we can just hang out as friends or whatever if you start feeling like shit again. throw popcorn at some stupid movie.
but sounds like this new guy is pretty into you. maybe give him a chance at some point?
[ fuck yo sandwich, she'd slap it out of his hand and would tell him to quit his addiction if this was face to face. but seriously, she exhales a sigh over her own text and his as she writes back: ]
its not ur fault. but im... getting over it. kinda. some days are easier than others. ive been keeping his treehouse clean for him so. probably stupid to do, but im trying to be a little mature about all this.
and i dont think so with the new guy. thats a big step and theres... conflict with us being an ACTUAL thing. a lot headache and i deal with enough of those.
it's probably better than blowing it up, yeah. although, i guess think of it this way, care for it because you want to, not for anyone else. if it makes you feel better and crap, then keep doing it.
what's the conflict? it's not because you're from different worlds??
no. actually, hes from the same realm as me. we've known each other since we were kids, he used to be my best friend.
but. stuff happened between us and he became my enemy. we fought for years, had different views on what we should do for our city, our people, and how to gain freedom and independence. whenever my old man and i would try to progress, he would swoop in with his gang and stop our shipments, dump our goods in the lakes or the ocean, or cause riots and trouble for silco's crew. just doing whatever he can to stop us from growing.
hes against shimmer while im not. and im still huffing it so. theres that too. theres a lot of history and issues between us that we cant really sweep under the rug. not all of it.
Yeah, it sounds like there's a mountain of issues for them to overcome, but... they will at least see each other when they return home. Maybe they won't have the same thing, but there's still a chance, right? Or at the very least, they will see each other again. It's better than nothing.
Scott exhales quietly to himself, but he starts responding to her message.]
yeah you can't sweep shit under the rug. believe me, it's impossible.
this is going to sound stupid. but. just start talking about crap. it's not like things are always easy between kotone and i. we have conflicts about stuff too.
your dad's here, right? i can't imagine him being happy about this development either way. look, you don't want another situation where something might happen between silco and your new not boyfriend. like with him and vi.
i don't gush-- look, i love her, but not everything is perfect all the time. we just don't try to air that out to everyone.
ah right! a peace treaty. its amazing what some scribbles on a paper can do, huh? say ure not going to do a big scary thing all because some words told u to. not knocking the idea, its just a real mind blower to me. one paper holds so much power.
hey, it makes life fun! but the type of fun depends on u.
well YEA. but the morons think just because he owns businesses that hes a threat somehow or hes up to no good. and look, im my old man's right-hand chick. i crash every business that he owns. and i can tell u FIRST hand, he isnt doing anything but sitting at his desk and scribbling numbers.
sorry to say, jinx, but it probably has to do with his appearance. he looks like a super shady dude. like. straight out of a james bond movie.
[Not to mention that he doesn't think Silco is like... completely innocent. She is Jinx's dad and that's a whole can of worms right there. Vi doesn't like him for a good reason, probably?? But Scott doesn't feel like getting into it right now.]
hey, not EVERYONE can have super smooth skin and look like they came straight out of the baby maker, all right? someone did a number on my old man's eye and all the toxins flew into it. and now half his face got all pruney. u expect ur face to appear nice after that?
his name is ekko. u might seem him around, hes always buzzing in SOMEBODY'S boundaries.
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[ that's not all, but more or less how she sees their exchange. ]
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but really, he has nothing to do with you being less mad at me.
[Some doubt.]
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what's the truth jinx
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fine, ill admit it. but i wasnt jealous. i was angry, but not just at u and the princess.
i was angry at miss bazooka (dara by the way) and the shin-dude, i was mad at my sis and her dumb girlfriend. and... if there are more couples here that i dont know about, i would have been mad at them too.
i was mad because all of u are doing this dating shitck and getting along so well, and happy like some gross story book, while i went through a break up. sorta, i guess.
and i felt no one else really understood how i was feeling because u, kotone, or whoever have someone to love in that way. and the rest of us arent interested in that kind of lovey dovey crap in the first place.
so i felt alone, and i was trapped in this icky, weird limbo of hating qunetin's guts but missing him at the same time, and i didnt know what to do with myself. i felt i couldn't go to anyone because no one else was going through this or had some kind of experience about it. he was my first with everything, you know?
it all didnt seem fair. so. ive been angry about it.
but im not so much anymore. im still pretty.... confused with my feelings and what i want, but im just trying to not think about it and just have fun with this new guy.
even though he keeps buzzing in my ear about if we are something, and i keep changing the subject on him.
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This is a lot of honesty and okay, Scott may take a little bit to respond, mostly because he's rereading some of the message. It's kind of surprising that she was angry at him-- at couples in general and that's definitely what this is. Jinx's upset that things didn't work out between her and Quentin while everyone is still together. Yeah, he could see how that would suck.
He tries to think of someone else that's in the same shoes as her, but honestly, Scott can't really picture anyone. Maybe Minato?? Since Aigis is gone, but it probably isn't the same thing still.]
it sucks that it didn't work out, jinx. i'm sorry that you felt alone and shit during all that. um, i don't really have any real advice-- we can just hang out as friends or whatever if you start feeling like shit again. throw popcorn at some stupid movie.
but sounds like this new guy is pretty into you. maybe give him a chance at some point?
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its not ur fault. but im... getting over it. kinda. some days are easier than others. ive been keeping his treehouse clean for him so. probably stupid to do, but im trying to be a little mature about all this.
and i dont think so with the new guy. thats a big step and theres... conflict with us being an ACTUAL thing. a lot headache and i deal with enough of those.
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what's the conflict? it's not because you're from different worlds??
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but. stuff happened between us and he became my enemy. we fought for years, had different views on what we should do for our city, our people, and how to gain freedom and independence. whenever my old man and i would try to progress, he would swoop in with his gang and stop our shipments, dump our goods in the lakes or the ocean, or cause riots and trouble for silco's crew. just doing whatever he can to stop us from growing.
hes against shimmer while im not. and im still huffing it so. theres that too. theres a lot of history and issues between us that we cant really sweep under the rug. not all of it.
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Yeah, it sounds like there's a mountain of issues for them to overcome, but... they will at least see each other when they return home. Maybe they won't have the same thing, but there's still a chance, right? Or at the very least, they will see each other again. It's better than nothing.
Scott exhales quietly to himself, but he starts responding to her message.]
yeah you can't sweep shit under the rug. believe me, it's impossible.
this is going to sound stupid. but. just start talking about crap. it's not like things are always easy between kotone and i. we have conflicts about stuff too.
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i don't gush-- look, i love her, but not everything is perfect all the time. we just don't try to air that out to everyone.
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suuuure, suuuure, i get it, lover boy. but i guess its pretty hard for shit to be perfect when this digital world wont let us.
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yeah, pretty much. shit keeps happening. it's like one thing after another.
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hey, it makes life fun! but the type of fun depends on u.
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fun isn't the word i'd use for all this crap. it's only making me appreciate it when things are peaceful around here.
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peaceful is ok sometimes. but i get bored if its TOO quiet around here.
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heh i didn't know what else i was expecting. but seriously, talk to this guy sometime. i know i would've regretted it if i didn't with kotone.
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fine fineeeeee. only because i like u.
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[Not to mention that he doesn't think Silco is like... completely innocent. She is Jinx's dad and that's a whole can of worms right there. Vi doesn't like him for a good reason, probably?? But Scott doesn't feel like getting into it right now.]
good. so. do i get a name of who this guy is??
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his name is ekko. u might seem him around, hes always buzzing in SOMEBODY'S boundaries.
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ekko, huh? guess i'll bump into him at some point. i'll tell him that you really like him.
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i'll see you at your cafe sometime, jinx.