[ ugh, having to open up really sucks sometimes. and if only she could be cruel enough to break her honesty code. ]
fine, ill admit it. but i wasnt jealous. i was angry, but not just at u and the princess.
i was angry at miss bazooka (dara by the way) and the shin-dude, i was mad at my sis and her dumb girlfriend. and... if there are more couples here that i dont know about, i would have been mad at them too.
i was mad because all of u are doing this dating shitck and getting along so well, and happy like some gross story book, while i went through a break up. sorta, i guess.
and i felt no one else really understood how i was feeling because u, kotone, or whoever have someone to love in that way. and the rest of us arent interested in that kind of lovey dovey crap in the first place.
so i felt alone, and i was trapped in this icky, weird limbo of hating qunetin's guts but missing him at the same time, and i didnt know what to do with myself. i felt i couldn't go to anyone because no one else was going through this or had some kind of experience about it. he was my first with everything, you know?
it all didnt seem fair. so. ive been angry about it.
but im not so much anymore. im still pretty.... confused with my feelings and what i want, but im just trying to not think about it and just have fun with this new guy.
even though he keeps buzzing in my ear about if we are something, and i keep changing the subject on him.
no subject
fine, ill admit it. but i wasnt jealous. i was angry, but not just at u and the princess.
i was angry at miss bazooka (dara by the way) and the shin-dude, i was mad at my sis and her dumb girlfriend. and... if there are more couples here that i dont know about, i would have been mad at them too.
i was mad because all of u are doing this dating shitck and getting along so well, and happy like some gross story book, while i went through a break up. sorta, i guess.
and i felt no one else really understood how i was feeling because u, kotone, or whoever have someone to love in that way. and the rest of us arent interested in that kind of lovey dovey crap in the first place.
so i felt alone, and i was trapped in this icky, weird limbo of hating qunetin's guts but missing him at the same time, and i didnt know what to do with myself. i felt i couldn't go to anyone because no one else was going through this or had some kind of experience about it. he was my first with everything, you know?
it all didnt seem fair. so. ive been angry about it.
but im not so much anymore. im still pretty.... confused with my feelings and what i want, but im just trying to not think about it and just have fun with this new guy.
even though he keeps buzzing in my ear about if we are something, and i keep changing the subject on him.