Ah, kiddo. It is hard, I won't lie to you about this. One thing, however - you don't have to make sense of it now. Perhaps it doesn't even have to. It's what you do with it. I could be using my own ability to make your life a living hell, but instead, I'm using it to look at you! Everything is different every passing moment, we just can't see it that well. You'll find your footing, just like everyone else is trying to.