[Later, he's going to deny all this, but Scott finds himself completely at ease with Dazai, relaxing and feeling entirely safe in his embrace. The hand that's softly easing through his hair adds to it, and while his tears have stopped, he still keeps his eyes closed against him.]

I know it's not her fault. Wasn't even thinking about blaming her.

[Maybe blame himself to some degree, because he wasn't mind-controlled at all and still almost killed people. But he knows that's not what Dazai wants... or Kotone, probably.]

Just feel like. Everything is out of my control lately. And nothing makes sense.