Oh, much to the contrary, I'm always trying, but I just seem to be very bad at it if in over eight years I haven't managed.

(math.

honesty, honesty, honesty. he does not enjoy it, but it is rather real - not something he can keep aside when he is constantly talking and whining and trying. at home, usually, there are no questions, an acceptance that dazai simply is this way, only few people have inquired.

here, it surprises him how many people actually get this upset.)